F Squared
Fat and Feminist. Or maybe the other way around — I’ve been a feminist longer than I’ve been fat.
Anyhow, at some point I will be inspired to write a longer “About me” page, but here’s the short version that explains a few things about body image.
As of today, I am still new(ish) to the Fat Acceptance/Health at Every Size movement. It’s about a year since I first stumbled across Kate Harding’s post The Fantasy of Being Thin. Didn’t matter to me that I was reading that post 5 months after it was authored — it still was one of the first glimmers of possibility for me to look at things a new way.
What’s ironic to me now is a coincidence in timing: on almost the exact day that Kate was actually writing that post, I was here (during my 2007 NaBloPoMo experiment) posting exactly the type of self-shaming “fat ugly & disgusting” internal monologue that I’m now working to kick.
When I decided to start blogging again and actively join the fat-o-sphere, I wondered if I should
- Start an entirely new blog. (Nah, I like “dangerousdcup” waaaaay too much to abandon it.)
- Quietly delete the few self-shaming posts about my weight. (Which felt uncomfortably like self-censorship and would have completely screwed up the NaBloPoMo timeline besides.)
- Transfer said posts over to my prior blog. (See note above re: NaBloPoMo timeline.)
Instead I’ve just re-filed the posts into their own category (”Ghosts of Diets Past”) as a small marker of where I came from. Luckily, not much diet talk made it onto the D-Cup before I drifted away from blogging. (For the real diet talk, go visit the old acreage at Area 151. Or really? Don’t.)
And I very much hope from here onward I’ll be able to stay away from the weight loss talk.
~ May 9, 2009
